LAST EDITED ON 11-17-04 AT 08:02 PM (EST)
 
Molested as a kid.
With a sister molested as a young teen or pre-teen.

Raised in harsh discipline, blue collar dad, who maybe
was alcoholic natural father or step dad,

expected to be more manly than he was, a loner, probably ridiculed by father, trauma of molestation

result: partial to under priviledged kids but jealous of priviledged children

Ambivalent sexuality, mostly hetero but bi tendencies, normal sexual drive but conflicted with feelings of guilt, tries to overcome guilt and shame thru mental and emotional effort but unsuccessfull, displaces shame and frustration toward traditional life style/staus quo types thru resentment/anger,

Still hurt by sister's molestation. Blames societal dual, victorian standards

Reactively sought manhood in out door activities to prove self, risk taker, outwardly a big BShrter, inwardly always unsure, puts on a front, loses it emotionally on precipitating occasions,

Seeks areas of control to aleviate feelings of depression and helplessness originating in childhood from uncontrolable circumstances, an activist, a shaper of thoughts thru discourse/writing/campaigning

resents sucessful people, his own dominating father, generalized to all authority figures